And I just want to run

far away from everyone 

into the forest

into my haven 

in the dark night

where no one can find

me where I can be alone.

I just want to go

away for a little while

and lie on the pile 

of flowers and leaves

alone with my thoughts and peace.

I need this moment

of me. 

We built this bridge, you and I

long enough that though 

we are far away

we are still connected

close but 

within our souls. 

Yet with every breath

every smile

every gesture

eye to eye

the mirroring without words

the absolute reflection without

the slightest

actual touch

I have observed 

within a short amount of time 

how easily 

how quickly that bridge is falling

breaking between us

deteriorating.

And all I can think about

is to turn and run

though a part of me does not want to

before there is no turning back

before I fall along with the bridge

with you 

if we get 

Too Close

With the whisper of my voice like the wind in the trees in the chilly dark night, you hear your name and wonder who and if this it is all in your mind. Still hearing the whisper of your name over and over, you follow my voice with curiosity burning like a low candlelight flame within your breast…you shiver. Click click click under the street lights, over the cobble stones, by the church, and into the side streets. Click click click into the dark side streets you follow my voice into the blackness with no one in sight. 

You look around

Left to right

Front and behind

You still hear my voice

whisper whisper whisper

closing in on you

then silence…..

GASP!!!!

Let me love the world! Please, do not keep me from doing so! Do not shut me away into the dark again! Let me love the world! Please, let me keep doing so! Let me love every day! To see those sunshine smiles on their faces! Let me love the world!

I feel like an in-between,

a thorn stuck in between two roses. 

Split down the middle 

that even expression of the experience,

bringing light to either or

shows result with no shine. 

And, in my mind 

to the very core

I feel torn. 

Oh to even imagine what visuals flash in their minds with just one look whether at night or in broad daylight. Though capable to ignore, knowing those images are not good…it’s sickening. 

And in the darkness an evil grin forms out of the blue with yellow,glaring, and crescent eyes staring straight at me. Laughter with no audible sound. Expression masked with a hooded, black cape. Death stares at me in the face. 

I cannot look into your eyes no longer.

And if, when you realize, you ever wonder

the reason why I cannot look at your face

because another has replaced

the person I used to know…

a beloved companion I cared for and loved. 

All I see is a stranger with a mask

filled with anger and hatred that

possessed the one I used to know.

And I prayed and begged for it to let go, 

but it still remains and maintains its hold. 

The more I try and try, I feel as if there’s nothing I can do

but to hold on.

Hold on to those happy memories

before what came to be. 

I hold on to them 

because they are dear to me. 

I shall never forget.

I will hold on. 

These rainbow smiles once colorful and bright, such a splendor in the sky that cannot be compared to any other. And with every look they make me smile, but they all begin to fade to gray. I regret for looking, now I look away. If I never peaked a single glance, these rainbow smiles would continue to remain. How can such happiness just simply fade away?

A swirling of thoughts within the mind and rumbling of mixed emotions deep within the soul. A category 5 hurricane and a volcanic eruption.

So much to do! So much to see! People to meet! The world is so vast and must be explored. There’s so much to learn, and want to know more. Though an adventurer at heart, constant with feet planted on the earth. Oh Restless Soul! So curious about life. Oh Restless Soul! So curious about the world! But never fear, although you do, to learn how to share the same yearnings with a Restless Soul like you.